sick

ugh. that woman again. she's not my boss and she's acting like one. she's just my boss mother. and she's bossing around all the time. whenever my boss was explaining to me or to anyone about a particular student that need extra attention in his or her english, mandarin or just because that student do homework very slow, and if she happened to passed by (which she always does), she'll stop, listen, cut in, and say 10x out louder and angrier as though every bit of that student did her wrong.
and she's abit 'abusive'. i don't know if it is or maybe i'm too sensitive. whenever there's a student, especially the weak ones, happens to look at somewhere else other then their book, and she saw it about 2 seconds after that, she'll come over and start scolding (shouting if i can put it) without knowing the real reason and then as an 'added bonus', she'll poke their head with her finger so hard while saying, "don't see, see, see! do your work!". and worse, she sometimes will just slap their arms not once, but until she feel satisfied when they write just abit ugly or just because one of us teachers are erasing everything of what the student just wrote. and what makes me sick is that she always says, "i love you!" to the student that is very nice and good. to me, it always sounded out so fake and eerie. (maybe she offended me so much until i beh tahan)
i dunno why am i complaining. maybe cause i'm the one who always kena from her? or because i'm overly sensitive on how the way she treat the children? or maybe i just can't tahan people shouting and scolding me? i dunno.

i need real laughter. i need to see people laugh out loud. i need to get over it. i need to learn to accept it.

p/s: pardon me for being such a nonsense. i feel like releasing it eventhough i know that it's a childish thing to do so. =) *hoping that everything will be okay*