life

i stumbled across a blog.
a sad one.
she have a normal life, normal friends, just like ours.
she camwhores, she celebrates friends birthdays, she goes out for gatherings, goes to school..
but she have a partly broken family.
this is reality, i now know.
this is like from dramas.
there are other people who have difficult life than mine.
besides, i have a friend who have the almost similar case.
God bless them.

i guess i should go for more lesser complaints and more to self dependent.
i wonder how things are now at home.

aiya!

OMG.
i accidentally landed myself on busy things again.
i had just agreed to be my uni's Pesta Tanglung's head of protocol unit.
T_____T
sure die for sure.
good luck to me.

UKM Open Championship last weekend.
i somehow have less fear on the mat already.
i guess.

look at the glee on her face when she got to know that she doesn't have to do hard work for academic report writing.
and when i said, "so this questionnaires (as in 30 copies) you bring back or i bring back?"
"you bring back la" with a happy smile on her face.

T.T i already have 40 over copies with me in the room and she wanna reduce the space on my study table? plus there's another 40 more that i have to collect later. 100 over copies.
my bed will be all in a mess with those papers.

and i wont be around for a few days. won't it be good if she holds it just for 3 days for in case of last minute notification stuffs? aih.
no comment.

i'm so frust and "ngo ta sei lei, ngo ta sei lei, ngo ta sei lei" running around in my head just now.

=)

happy mooncake festival!
and i saw the moon heee

i saw alot of 1st years playing with lanterns outside the hostel compound.
i would like to play too..*sniff*
but there's assignments to complete.
oh well, there's always next time. i guess.

i feel so aching all over.
my neck, thighs, arms, muscles, stomach...
this is going to be a super duper boring outing to UKM on the weekend.
not to mention stress too.

and i'm currently liking LeeHom's new album, '18 Martial Arts' =D
not much of his fan but this album have more songs that i like compared to others.
owh i'm lovin' "你不知道的事", "柴米油鹽醬醋茶" and "美".
the first song is from his movie 'Love in Disguise' which i haven't watched, second song's title is funny cause it translated 'tea,sugar, salt, kicap..i have no idea' third cause it's my name. lol. no lah. *but the chinese character doesn't seem right...=.= *

oh well, nite nite =)

iwantquitcan?

no matter how many times i said i wanna quit, there will never be a chance.
two times already and i still got the same results.
i forsee broken tooth, injury and bruises in the next 5 days.
aih
gimme something like pattern can? =(

hong kong

my class have a new substitute lecturer for academic report writing. from hong kong. lol
okay, i know it's not that great but my classes lecturers are all from here, while others have international lecturers which is unfair. heh
i think he have difficulty in remembering foreign names so he asks us to create an english name each. lol

so now my class is consists of Melly, Mary, Larks, Joe, Maximus, Neo, Lalouch, Lahe, Freaky, CT, Jane, Beth, Bell,...etc

now i have to re-memorise names

*edit* oh before i forgot,
he asked us all, "i know that some Malaysians does not eat pork due to religious reasons or some other reasons but can i know where we could get pork?" ahhahahah
he's so humble man.
and sounded desperate for pork too.
sad case, he came here knowing nothing about kuantan and all and yeah, pork is scarce over here. like, seriously.
i felt pity for him.

in the last 24 hours

i did miss ash and fudge
and no, i did not run around aeon nor did i go there =(

what else?
oh yea, i did not put full blast on the air-con cause it's raining at night

and i'm starting to dread this place as i know what am i suppose to expect in the next 2 months.
aih
tahan la tahan

2.10pm in the kampung place saying, bye.

in 24 hours time

i wanna switch on the air-con full blast before going air-conless
to run around aeon before going back to the kampung
to suddenly miss Good Samaritan home. i want Rocky and jonathan and sarah and mary
to suddenly want to see victor and somkiet and anson and ying ting and marcus and manson and and...
to suddenly want to rub on fudge's and ash's stomach
to want to bring a helper to wash my clothes in uni. eh heh XD

okay, maybe only running around aeon for now. don't know why

i so want to pat a dog right now.
i sounded like a dog maniac

it's 5.30am now, bye

=)

p/s: 1 more week left and i haven't start studying. mehh

i wonder when He will stop all this.
i wonder why He chooses us.
it is enough that He wants me to endure it.
but why must He include the rest?
is it that i've had done wrong?
is it that He is paying back on what i've had done before?
if i did, why does He need to include others as well?

with all these, i felt like hell to have involved in an accident.
i felt like hell adding that into that list of things that we're having now.
but i thank Him that i survived.
if not, worst things could happen.

what does He want to do any way?
is He playing with us?
i somehow, sometimes, lost trust and faith in Him

however, i am truly glad that each place where i've been have an Angel or two that helps me out whenever life really sucked.
and that Angel at where i am alone far far away is someone who i would've not believe in a thousand years will help me out as my first impression of it was truly unimaginable. =)
and my Angel over here, are the ones that i truly trust, and hope, that they will make all this better, one day..

random i guess..

sitting here alone doing nothing except the drama marathon on 'Attention Please', ironing clothes and sweeping the floor makes you think alot. maybe. ^ ^

i've been thinking. *eh heh*
i wonder if people wants to have a bf/gf is because they're feeling lonely?
even there's friends at the side but there always one that they want to bug and just simply being wu liao with don't they?
and so, i'm guessing that a person starts finding one because they felt lonely?

going out with friends that have one too, i guess, make that someone feel partner-less.
not peer pressure. no, i don't think so.

for a person who've been set in the mind that 'forever i will not marry!' , oh well..
maybe it's due to the solitaryness today i somehow simply ter-think of needing one to kacau with. *eh heh*

anyhow, i realised that i can't really stand being left alone. for a few hours, okay. for a few days without nothing to do (ie no computer, no tasks, no assignment, no books) i'll be bored, yes. but i will always have this lonely heavy thing inside that simply pull you down, feeling sad and all.

i guess the more older i grow, the less lonely time i want. i used to like being left alone for a whole day at home while my parents went to work and my siblings away at aunt's house. well, except during heavy rains with thunderstorms even though i like the rain.

it's getting late. night =)