i wonder when He will stop all this.
i wonder why He chooses us.
it is enough that He wants me to endure it.
but why must He include the rest?
is it that i've had done wrong?
is it that He is paying back on what i've had done before?
if i did, why does He need to include others as well?

with all these, i felt like hell to have involved in an accident.
i felt like hell adding that into that list of things that we're having now.
but i thank Him that i survived.
if not, worst things could happen.

what does He want to do any way?
is He playing with us?
i somehow, sometimes, lost trust and faith in Him

however, i am truly glad that each place where i've been have an Angel or two that helps me out whenever life really sucked.
and that Angel at where i am alone far far away is someone who i would've not believe in a thousand years will help me out as my first impression of it was truly unimaginable. =)
and my Angel over here, are the ones that i truly trust, and hope, that they will make all this better, one day..