the 400th post and random.

it's the 400th post. woohoo! == okay.

i'm just gonna post about my usage of 'OK' since i have loads of different expressions for it. i wonder if i have posted about it before..hmm oh well. 'nyway...

1. okey
means a happy 'yes', or willing to do something for you sincerely

2. okay
means it's a normal 'yes' that i'm willing but lazy to help you do something
OR
i'm lazy to type longer then 'okay'
OR
i practically feel indifference.
but it's a good 'okay' =)

3. 'kay
it's the exact thing like 'okay'
and the only difference is that i only use this to people
that i interact close and comfortable with.
i use this more often in conversation. =)

4. oh 'kay
means you made me speechless.
in a very very good way. =)
that always left me laughing my head off
and giving me a good day =)

5. ok
this is not a so good 'yes'. i rarely use this.
but will do on occasion where i'm half agreeing to what you want.
more like "fine. i'll just follow what you want, don't feel like wanna elaborate any further"
OR
i'm half awake on the bed replying =D

6. k
this obviously means i'm pissed.
i only use this about once or twice.
this practically says
"whatever. you do what you want, say what you want. if anything happens, don't you dare find me."


oh wow. i have 6 okay's
now i know..

engaged.

"calling out to God. calling out to God."

i guess my signal is not strong enough to send a message to God.
He did not reply me for days, weeks and months.

i would rather fail in my life and get all poor and live in the streets and die early just to see the person that i'm worried now having a better life and to have positive side on doing everything its doing. and to stop on saying about suicide and feeling emo or hatred to its one and only blooed related people.
and i would dare to give up anything to prevent the friends in leading to the wrong way.
teenagers friends are so damn bloody annoying.

to teenagers out there, please i tell you, please, if you CAN'T OR DON'T know how to give good advices to your friends please, just keep quiet because whatever you do or say, you'll just let them feeling more wanting to do what they want.

IF THEY DID SUICIDE, DO YOU WANT TO BE RESPONSIBLE?!

"i feel like want to suicide"
bloodybrainlessperson: go go

yea, do that, and let the guilt hunt you FOR LIFE.

answer me..

i feel defected.

1st story
i nearly forgot how i used to go back home after every holidays for the first semester and ended up having trouble with my leg once i stepped into the house.
i have no idea what happen to my leg, well, the pain was at the butt.
you know, where the pelvis area that connect with your tibia? is it tibia? the big thigh bone.
the joint area was in super pain for the whole first semester.
i still remember that the pain during over here in uni wasn't that bad, i couldn't walk fast and always have trouble reaching to the class on time. and getting up from the bed, too, was painful. plus, mine's the upper bunk bed. and if i accidentally sleep facing upwards, i won't be able to move once i got up and i don't know how i finally moved away from my bed. oh well

and when i'm back home once for the holidays, my butt was so painful that i can't even move my leg at all. i was in pain, that lying down or walking or sitting does not help. it was so painful that i thought i needed surgery.
i was desperate to get rid of the pain that i even said once to my parents that i want to go to the hospital to get a check up done (with hints to get a surgery). they were reluctant to bring me go, and i was left what i was till they see that i can't take the pain anymore.
then the only thing they can do is to bring me to the chinese medicine doctor and it's okay, at least my butt's cured and i know now that the culprit was from my fall on the butt during training made my bone shifted ithinkidontknowanyway, i feel defected.

2nd story
now my left abdomen, the rib cage, is in pain. *rolls eyes*
see now why i said i'm defected?
it happened since yesterday. it will suddenly cramped up only on that side a few times and it kinda hurts abit.
btu luckily today it doesn't but it's still painful.
maybe it's because i used to sleep on my left side, and i put all my weight on that side of abdomen. plus, my bed in uni is not even a bed, it's a plank. so i'm sleeping on a plank and i used to get up feeling backache especially on my left side.
i hope this pain won't go anywhere cause i definitely do not want to think of going for a surgery anymore.


so.
am i born defected or did i made myself defected? hmm
i'm prone to all kinds of accidents and pain.
joint pain, muscle pain, butt pain, back pain, leg pain, head pain, neck pain. idontknow.
i was even told that i have weak bone. wha' da? and i thought i have strong bones since i have training and stuffs and i even drink milk! don't tell me that calciums in milk is a fake information for advertising purposes?? lol just kidding.
i guess i'm just old with no calciums in the body.

ow. it's starting to hurt again. TSK.

A.S.S.

Agents of Secret Stuffs or known as A.S.S.
starring Ryan Higa and Arden Cho.
it's not a production but it's ryan higa's short movie.
check out his Youtube channel at 'nigahiga'.

this short clip is silly with some scenes of soft guys and this-does-not-make-sense part.
but 'nyway, Ryan's cuteeeee LOLOLOL
watch it. take 35mins time off and watch this, have a great laugh. =D

i can watch his vids all day but i have finals =(
mehhh i still watch it anyway, only during break time. hahah

remember.

"Think before you speak."
Words can hurt, whether you mean them to or not.

"Don't make assumptions."
Stereotypes hurt everyone. Examine what your prejudices are and make adjustments to look at everyone as an individual.



peace out.

hm.

what am i then?
an albino Aborigine?

*roll eyes*

wa si beh tahan.

ai si ah har.
ham mi sai pun ai
ka ki mai zho.
cin chia ai si eh lang.

for bin.

ummm...you're asking when i'm coming back rite?
i should be back on the 7th. it's the confirmed date since my last paper is on the 6th.
but since my mom told me last week that it's best if i find something to do in uni for a moment because my bro's having his major exam.
if i get to find stuff to do over in uni for May then i might not come back yet..might..
but i doubt there's anything here that i can join to let me stay over so i guess i'll still be back on the 7th. =D

^^

went out to have Korean food again. yesh~
we had the fried chicken thingy again and bibimbap. yummy yum yum! =D

and i saw this korean artists folders for sale. and bought one for my sis since she die die also need something that belongs to korea and that says SNSD.

i was tempted to buy everything there is over there again. i wanna buy the socks that have big bang faces on it, i wanna buy the korean cutlery set, i wanna buy the instant noodle (lol)..etc and etc.

and then we went for a movie and watched 'Rio'. it was hilarious. love the birds, love the epic failure romantic-less macaw bird, 'Blu' and the every so often Lionel Richie's song scene. haha

go, go watch it! i don't mind another round. hehe

this is fun ^^

If you are a Dog: A very loyal and sweet person.Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends,all of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Mouse: Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder, people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-togethers. However, you are sensitive, which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Lion: Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

If you are a Cat: An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy,with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool, when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Turtle: You are near to perfect and nice at heart.The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people.You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return.You are generous enough.Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

If you are a Dove: You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life.Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected.In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Panther: You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk.You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group.Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are a Monkey: Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!!

taken from "neotrax says"

cool eyh? i'm monkey. =.= which is so so not good.
i don't deny that i'm a well..a..well... T_T well.. a person who wants to avoid troubles.
i just hate getting caught in the middle or brought to be blame especially if it's arguments or pointing fingers. this explains why i would rather go beat around the bush when explaining something. i don't mind beating the bush till all those leaves died if it enables me to get away from all those hassle. just listening to people fight is enough to make me puke till my stomach all shriveled up or enough to make me roll my eyes till it jumped out of its sockets.
so since you guys know that i will run away from troubles, just let me run away kay? don't drag me in. unless it's some trouble that i caused it myself. lol
and being impatient is true. it applies on last minute work. the ridiculous thing is that when i send an sms to a person, i expect the person to reply me like 1 second after i hit the 'send' button. 1 minute is like forever. seriously. and when i ask a person a question, and after about 2 seconds of no answer, i will just say, "it's okay. nevermind. i go find it myself".
example: "eyh, when exactly is the deadline for the report? today ar? or tomorrow wan? which day?" (say it out real fast and urgent)
*no answer/silent for 2 seconds because they're processing what i just said*
"oh nevermind la. i go ask other people. tomorrow last day i think"

see? i ask the question, i answer it myself. that's because i got no patience for last minute work/ or task. =) bear with me then. hhahah

bye~
btw, which are you? hahah

home.

it's officially the study week now.
everyone's putting status such as,
"having lunch at penang now"
or
"guess where am i now?" ~KEPONG~ *love*

=.=
yea i know you guys are back HOME. ish ish

i wanna go back home just to get:
1. PAMPERED. yea. my dad will do that and my mom(but she, aih..she double standard la she. haha). but it will only last for about 2 weeks before he start scolding me for being lazy. yea well. haha
2. have dinner at the big round table.
3. i'm so gonna mention the word 'DURIAN' until they buy one. i don't care. the ppl here have been releasing durian smell all over the hostel floors throughout this week already.
4. go shopping. even to Tesco will do.
5. go walk around Chi Liung's wednesday pasar malam just to look at stalls selling stuffs. plus, i can go poke poke at unknown vegetables. hahah
6.to laze at the couch by hanging one leg at an arm rest. yea. that's what i do.
7. go lie down on the cold floor and sleep. i miss sleeping on the floor this time lately.
8. to complain alot on why i must be the one who have to go switch on the air-con every night for every room.
9. to give the fish a heart attack by appearing my face close to the aquarium. XD
10. lastly, to disturb Coffee and the hairless-pink-pig-like-dog that live opposite my house. i wanna let them bark bark whenever i put my tongue out at them. hakhakhak (but the pig-dog is so blur he just wont bark =.=)

i wanna go back. but after may. mom's requesting me not to come back. sad case wei. just because someone's having an important exam i have to find stuff to do for may and june.
let's see if uni have stuffs for me to join this holiday. hmmmmm

wednesday.

for the first time in my life,
caffeine works.
i dont feel sleepy. well, abit.
but i have this overactive feeling throughout the night.

and the consequences on not sleeping is that i accidentally dozed off during class in the morning.
i didn't realized that i dozed off.
until a few random dreams starts to appear.
i snapped out of my dream and heard people laughing and saw my lecturer's face.
O.M.G.

she's been talking about me while i unconsciously dozed off.
to me, it seems like i had just 'passed out' for like 1 minute.
but when i asked around later, she was talking about me for the whole 1 minute (they said might be longer but i shall just put it 1 min) and i still wasn't awake.
all i heard was "..dia tidur dengan sedapnya.." something like that.
aihhhh is there never a day went no wrong for me?

if only she knew that i did more than half of the group proposal just because some other people give so much reason like got test the next day. like i dont have one. mine's at 3. that fellas'? at 8pm. all i get was a direct google translate from english to malay. it's not even one bit right. it was all awfully wrong.
and i have to continue stay up to read my notes for test.
and for the 2nd time in my life, i thought i'm going to be insane. i was really afraid.

but anyhoo, proposal's done and i'm glad and happy and something happened during the test and i'm emo now but all in all, i forgive that fella in an instant, no grudges no anything and i'm back sane for now and i'm going to take nap.
and hope everything's all right and back on track when i get up.

bye now.

i'm busy

yea, i'm busy, like now.
but i'm so stressed up i decided to go blogging. lol
just for a 'mo.

i'm going to have a test at 2pm today. which approx. 9 more hours. ample time? nope.
cause i have class at 9am till 1pm.
i wanted to skip 9am class so badly. it'll be from 9 to 11am. then the next class will be from 11 to 1.
but if i skipped this class, i'm going to get a warning letter since i skipped once before for helping my friend's program.
stupid education system that restrict students from being absent from class.
it's all about warning, letters, reasons, warning, letters, reasons. urgh.

and i hate english class so badly now.
i'm going to have this impromptu persuasive speech test later on and i'm not prepared with the hints given.
i know it' suppose to be sapsapsui but it's not for me who yes, can talk, but my problem is that i can keep on beating around the bush with just one single stupid point. i can talk about the same thing over and over again but with different sentences.
or i might just stood there with my brain not working because it refuses to (because it hates english) work.

i can't start revision till now which is already 4.55am because i've just completed doing the proposal for a program that i'm entering. it's a group work. but it seems like i'm doing most of it. oh well, since it's already a last minute one, i don't mind much.

and i wish that my socks could just rinse by itself and flew to the clothes line to be dried all by itself. i still have it here soaking in the pail for about 12 hours now. it's a smelly socks. so i think soaking for a long time will do it good... rite?

oh well, gotta go if i dont wanna fail my test. i had enough of it.

him la sumore who.

happy 19th birthday to my
most smelliest annoying brother EHVAH!
(9th not 8th. post something wrong)

he's the nerd, the smart ass, the thinker
the one that i hate the most.
hmph

how in the world he know about rem, motherboard, hard disk,
and everything else that we never learn in school
during secondary years
is still putting me in wonders.

to be honest,
i have no idea what thing is a rem anyway.
and computer stuffs ain't his field of study
AT ALL

and he used to annoy me out of my wits
with questions and helps on how to use the internet.
yea he did.
every clicks or pop ups or a simple error window came up,
he'll go,
"cei, how to do this? what to click?"
or
"how to go to the website?"
or
"how you do this this (insert any simple random thing in the net) thing?"

and now he just go on surfing the net like he's the king of cyberspace.

that's my bro.
hateable, likeable, fightable.
yea, we fight.
more intense is after we learn some moves in taekwondo.
HAHAHAH
okay, not funny.
bye =)

=)

went for bkb alone just now.
lucky didnt invite anyone over.
they'll just kill me.
the court in the sports complex are not allowed to be used anymore.
and so i have to play outside under the 10am sun.
i endured the heat (lucky there's this big gust of wind) until about 11.30am
before i called it quit.

and now i think i got sunburn.
my arms are red and my forehead seems to be 'raw'.
being a sunburnt monster, here i come. >.<

nightmare.

Bad dreams…

My girlfriend sometimes have a bad dream and wake up grumpy… O_O I think it’s kinda cute actaully~
(another from HJ Story)

i dreamt that i dreamt of a nightmare.
get it?
lol

means i dreamt that myself in the dream dreamt a nightmare.
(i'm not sure it helps. lol)

okay, i was doing a super duper last minute work for my public speaking that was due on this morning.
when the time reaches 3am, i decided to take a break because i finally finishes my full speech script.
and so i watched Secret Garden for a short while before continuing.
then since i'm sleeping at the top of the bunk bed, i climbed up to adjust the fan because i'm feeling hot below.
but then i plopped down and took a nap.
then weird dreams started coming in.
if you've watched Secret Garden, i dreamt of 'Oska' and that i have to do his work that is similar to my public speaking work. plus i have to finish it up before morning which is the same time as my public speaking class.
i dreamt that i got up from the dream. but i wasnt in reality.
but when i really did got up,
i got up feeling confused, still believing that i have to do the additional work, i went back to my table with the extra burden.
at the time, i was feeling so near on going crazy. you know, crazy as in being permanent. going cuckoo.
i was so afraid that i will loose my sanity and at the same time, trying to finish up the work.
and some how, i realise that i only have my slides for the speech to complete and all is left is memorising my script.

wow. if i did loose my sanity, i'd rather die.
there's no way i want to walk around going "buuu buuu buuuuuu" with a flower in my hand.
it'll be such a waste...
too much pressure. too much pressure.
i wonder how other people could handle all these. gosh.
anyway, i screwed the public speaking with flying colours and i'm feeling much much MUCH better as wednesday passes by already.

now, i just have to put in a new effort to make sure i get on track with all my studies. hmmm

i hope. i wish.

. . . that Friday comes sooner than the eye blinks.

so that i can once again go play basketball.

training's gone. urm, well, i guess because i don't see anyone from the girl's team went to have practice. so i assume...no more?

please Friday be fast.
please Friday be here.
please be Friday!


"Work hard! You can do it!!"

another art by HJ Story

p/s: Syahril, Syika wanna play bball on Friday? =DDD haha

skipped class again.

tuesday's 9am class is always the target to be skipped
just because there's unfinished work for wednesday.
not that i liked it.
i can almost hear my parents scolding me now.
i know that i'm sorry and regretted it.

oh, to you guys out there,

"When you’re down, please remember and think of all the happy small and big things around you and the millions of reason that you should be smiling :)"

taken from HJ Story

nice aite? i like the doodles that he drew for his girlfriend. lol

i need help

i think i have attitude problems.

my temper rises faster than usual.
only one good thing.
it only happens to people who steps on my head making me as though a door mat for them to wipe their feet on.
i have 2 classmates who did this to me.
they treated me as though i'm a person with no feelings.
words like, "you do this first la later only we do"
"you free later go lab do the things." haven't reply yet, came another message from the same person saying "you no need to go"

yeah, thanks. i'm a person you people can order around as much as you want yea?
and so thank you, because of them, i tend so shout/ say out loud to them on anything i want to say.
plus, they're guys. that's the problem.
my temper + guys = i dont care what thing i said out, they wont get hurt cause they're guys.

i tend not to put my feet into other people shoes.
i want to, but i always forget to.
that's the problem, that's why i always get angry without knowing why a person does this or does that.

all i want now is patience and understanding.
i'm tired of being angry and frustrated and feeling annoyed.
and i'm uberly tired of people stepping on my head all the time full stop.

its a sign!

wow. my blog's been updated like every single day.
there's even 2 posts in a day.

its a sign.
a sign that says, 'finals are coming!'
yeah, in about 3 weeks time.
whenever finals are approaching, things like;
blogging,
updating facebook status,
procrastinating,
day dreaming,
finding new songs to listen eventhough i have tons already,
have the urge to go running/do sports,
have the itch to just kick anything visible at the front (yesh even pillars).

anything except sitting down to complete assignments, speeches, or to study.

i now have to urge to just do some kicking at 12.22am in the midnight
and to just grab a basketball to do some shots over at the bkb court.
oh save me.

. . .

i'm feeling sick.
i felt tired, sleepy and everything
but the truth is,
i slept more than being awake.
it's been like this for almost a year now.
i want to get myself a fever.
i dont like being / feeling going to be sick but it's not 'sick-ing'.
dont tell me that anemia thingy's not cure yet.
i ate alot compared to last 3 months.
i definitely have an overdose of nutrients now.

april fool's day

i just realized that once we grow older, we tend to just forget april fool's day.
i do. i forgot. merely, i just don't care anymore. lol

but then this day, 3 years back (wow, upper 6 is like 3 years back already?) i played a prank on my class. lol
they looked so stressed up and everyone was studying and being quiet and all. yeah well except brian who's the only one sleeping. and they totally forgot what day it is. except pei chen. haha
the next class was biology, and mr HHH wasn't around and it's rumored that Mrs Koh will be taking over as her class.
i purposely declared that i'm going over to the staff room to see if Mr HHH is around. and they were saying no, don't go, don't ever bother in case i bumped into Mrs Koh.
i did went anyway. just to double check that Mr HHH is definitely not around.
he's not and on my way back to class, i saw Mary-Ruth over at Melanie's (6 Budi's or Jujur?) classroom.the class was upstairs and the staffroom was at ground floor.
i went upstairs to let Mary-Ruth see me. she saw, and i gave this urgent expression telling her that she definitely have to be in the class exactly rite at that moment before Mrs Koh comes in to relief the class.
LOL
she panicked and quickly said goodbye to Melanie and was on the way downstairs before i shouted April Fool! LOL sorryyyyyyy haha

then we both came downstairs back to our class to continue it on our classmates. she suggested that i should run in like i usually do, making it urgent.
i did ran in, and said out loud and urgently, "eh, Mrs Koh wants us to go to the lab now. she wants to teach. faster, faster."
they're all whining and slowly getting up gathering notebooks and stationaries and 'The Gang' was on the way towards the door when i shouted April Fool! again and i think for a split second there they wanted to kill me on the spot. LOLOLOLOL soreeeeeeee

that was the last since that day. haha

by the way, Mrs Koh is our chemistry teacher and we're all absolutely scared of her. okay la, not all. me and Pei Chen eventually started to laugh and writing to each other messages whenever she's facing her back on us and we'll pretend to be very serious when she's facing to the front. haha
Mr HHH which is Mr Haeirul our class teacher and as also our Biology teacher. LOL

owh how i miss Upper 6. =D

=( / =) / =.=

i know.

i have emotional disorder.
i have trouble in expressing what i truly feel on the spot.
=.=
anyways,

played basketball after class at 10am was awesome. =)
i've decided. before this semester ends, i shall go play bkb for fun every friday after class. which is in another 2 more weeks. it's better then nothing =)
thank you syahril for accompanying. (see? i dont even know how to express out in words) blehh

that's my doing =.=
it happens almost all the time whenever i decided to go play bkb.
*i did not take this picture ==*

anyway, was suppose to be going for some b-pro activity today till sunday but i did not.
why does my subject like to give assignments and presentations and tests at the very last minute?? study week's just 2 more week away. dang it.