i should stop.

i should somehow stop Google pictures of that place.
i would definitely get a very big disappointment once that result is out and got rejected.

and i should stop imagining about that place before sleeping and after waking up.

i really should, should, should.

geez

AU

i miss Australia. Melbourne that is.

a day trip to AU now almost cost near RM5000
and by a week's time sure bankrupt; pokai.


the Melbourne i remember was the penguins hiding under the walkway bridges in the afternoon away from the summer heat.
the Melbourne i remember was the tallest christmas tree i've ever seen in the biggest shopping mall i went.
the Melbourne i remember was the seagulls flying everywhere in phillip's island? that ended up shooting shit directly onto my uncle's car. (i saw it drop. hahahaaha)
the Melbourne i remember was where a group of pelicans came out of their ponds and start chasing people everywhere. (it was scary, adrenaline and funny at the same time). you can see people running away and pelicans just walk walk walk at people with their wings open. XD
the Melbourne i remember was the animals in the zoo.
the Melbourne i remember is the smell of the morning grass.
the Melbourne i remember was the bacon that i first ate (yummy yum yum ^^)
the Melbourne i remember was the first biggest milk bottle that i ever seen compared to the normal carton milk in M'sia.
the Melbourne i remember was the delicious plum and banana that i ate.
the Melbourne i remember was at a hill with big, strong gusty cold winds blowing and brown grass.
the Melbourne i remember was forced to put on a lip gloss for the first time because the temperature there is dry and hot. yuck.
the Melbourne i remember was the time difference.
the Melbourne i remember is the market that sells a whole load of Australian stuffs (like duh) and my mom was complimenting the seller so he could sell the koala keychains at a lower price. ha ha.
the Melbourne i remember was the first and last time i voluntarily asked for a DRESS. pink one.
the Melbourne i remember was jumping around the king size mattresses in my aunt's bedroom with my other male cousins and got caught by my mom and their moms through the window from our ever-ly jumping shadows all the way from the garden one night.
the Melbourne i remember was the song about a one-eyed monster my cousin taught me.
the Melbourne i remember was the first ever netball game i went to and come to like it and took it up during standard 4.
the Melbourne i remember was the first ever morning jog that i went for every sunday. i was 7 and the jog trail around the neighborhood is just too long for a 7 year old! (i came around the house main entrance huffing and puffing like i would die at that very early morning)
the Melbourne i remember was a big tree in a playground that is filled with cicada's shells on it and it can be picked and played around.

that's the Melbourne i remember.

byeeeee

now, let's just focus on how am i going to spent my whole semester holidays.
i'm getting bored here.

of nightmares and weird dreams.

once i came back, i have all these weird dreams.

last 2 nights.
i dreamt about Nichkhun.


it really is a stupid dream really. except for Nichkhun's fanatics. i dreamt that he's going to marry some girl of a different race. no, not Korean. and it's on his wedding day and i'm invited but i dont wanna enter cause i'm wearing t-shirts and basketball shorts?. okay. and my cousins are invited! weird huh?

last night's dream.
this is a real nightmare. i dreamt like there's 3 funerals in one dream. and i think those 3 funerals are the people that i know. all i remember was that the coffins are not yet closed, and we're putting soils into their coffins. the last funeral was that the person is still alive and willing/about to die. and same here, the coffin's not closed and we're putting in the soil to cover that person's still wriggling feet. and before i woke up, i was crying a little in there and was attending the funeral service. scary. lucky i woke up.

and then i slept back and i dreamt this weird dream.
i was playing with an office chair with this so called friend whom i don't even know or recognise(never seen before la that means), but he's my very close friend. we're fooling around with that chair by sitting on it and rolling it throughout that whole floor of a building and annoyed a man who later chases us all over the place before i ended up in a fashion runway to supervise and picked out the outfits for models. weirdd

maybe i should not watch 49days before sleeping. or watch anything before sleeping.

mums

do you know that Asians families stress on something like a white lie?
(okay i have no idea what i just said)

well we're in the car yesterday after dinner in grandma's house.
and my aunt is in the car with us.
the conversation between her and my mom goes on till she reached her house.
they're talking about the instant noodle that my youngest aunt bought for everyone.
she 'supposedly' bought every flavor of it but i only remembered the 'tomyam with santan' flavored noodle.
the thing is, before the went, my parents went over to Padang Besar in Perlis just for a ride to the Thai border and since i'm about to go back to uni in like a few more weeks, my parents bought the Thai branded instant noodles for me so i dont have to stick to the normal Maggi.
they bought everything except the santan flavored tomyam and duck flavored ones.

and then the week after, my youngest aunt went there after my mom told about that place.

let's come back to yesterday's story.
so in the car, my aunt ask me how's the flavor of the instant noodles (note the plural noun?)
so i bluntly said out "ah? i only have the ones that mom bought-" which i stopped quite quickly cause my mom had her brows burrowed at me; which indicates a WHOLE load of things with just the expression.
it clearly says 'no i do not buy that for you it is bought by your youngest aunt pls lie'.
oh well.
then i just erm, divert it by saying 'oh i ate the santan one.'
then my aunt goes 'ah yayayayayayayaya the santan ones are very niceeee. how about the tomyam one'
=.= what's with the tomyam man??
"oh the tomyam ones are okay larh" i replied. (while looking outside the window)

aiyoh. i still dont understand why must lie on this thing. oh well. only my mom knows about it.
bye now.

hey there!

it is worth the sleepless nights =D

happy happy.
it's not so worth la, more like about 75% worth.
oh well.
i'm happy happy.
and i have a slight headache now
and i think my eyes are so thin and it looks like its on a straight line now
i shall go sleep for a 'mo.
after i throw all those papers from the Piala NC program that i'm still keeping.
i wonder if i'll find a cockroach behind it?

no. i take that back. i don't wanna.

toodles.

did i just 'toodles'?? omg, i must be really happy. ==

hi there, i'm still awake.

hey, i'm still awake.
today will be the last paper for the semester.
i am wondering if staying awake studying is worth it.
i might have a brain jammed later.
i am truly afraid that that will happen.

i think i'm starting forget all those things that i studied already.
oh noh.

it's 6.40am now.
better continue. =)
morning.

i sound stupid.

yea, reading back those posts did made me sound stupid.
rite?
'nyway


that's cause someone in the house is being childish
so the big sis caught into the mood of trying to save the world
and ended up gotten all emo and sad and unhappy
(doesn't sad and unhappy the same thing?)

and the big sis is still trying to do something.
the only thing is i'm going to give up.
i'm just tired.

and who says being the eldest is the most wonderful thing in the world?

yea, i got new stuffs and not a single thing from the hand-me-downs(second-handed stuffs larh)
that's just one. and the only one.

the rest will be,
"you're the elder sis, give it to her/him"
(i have to serve both bro and sis. how's that?)
"you're the elder sis, let them take first"
"you're the elder sis, teach them"
"you're the elder sis, follow them"
"you're the elder sis, help them"
"you're the elder sis, go talk to them"
"you're the elder sis, let them do first"
"you're the elder sis, behave can't you?"
"you're the elder sis, go pay for them"

no wonder most first-borns hate the last-borns (wha??)
'nyway, i'm the elder sis.

why does this post suddenly become so long? =.=

still engaged.

there's still no reply.
i guess my messages are put into the 'Keep in View' tray.


btw,

i hate being an Asian.
period.

Asians have problems in expression their feelings and thoughts out to their loved ones.
that's why i hate being one.