LOA much? yea i suppose.

my eyes are like, too fogged up.
i can't see things clearly ahead of me.
no, i'm not talking about my eyes. i'm talking about my behavior and attitude towards things that i'm facing.
maybe it's the overload of last minute assignments. when the lecturers decided to give tests on like, the next day or the next 2 days, i totally blew.
there's no way i can study for another 2 new tests (maybe i can, i just don't want to) when i haven't even ready yet for my 2 tests on wednesday.
i should've know that this will come when it's been happening almost every semester.

next time, i shall just write down all those due dates instead of remembering them. i wrote out all those due dates and test dates just now. suddenly it seemed so...well..not so panicky anymore. but there'll be 2 tests each on wednesday and thursday.

and i should stop posting whatever status over in FB this time. i kinda dislike what i did after whatever thing i posted it up. blrghh

maybe i should get some sleep since last night all i dreamt was the Immunotechnology's notes attacking me, (figuratively) at 4am. (i woke up after that).
or maybe one week at home is just not enough.

i forgot i had a library book with me.
and the due date was yesterday.
dang it.

wrong week?

i guess i chose the wrong week to go back.
but still, going back 2 weeks later is also another wrong week with both my siblings having exams.

let's see,
for this week i have like loads of assignments that needed information from the library or the net and i can't do both since i'm back rite? plus i have tests the week after

for the next holiday which is 2 weeks later, well, i can't move around noisily at home since they have their biggest exam.

i might as well picked this week eventhough it meant unfinished assignments and all than the next one if it meant getting scold upon for making too much noise.
imagine, i can't even use my room's bathroom to pee because the flush is too noisy. or even laugh 'WAHAHAHAHAHAHA'. i can only go 'wahahahaha'.

i rather have the Christmas holidays then the early 1 week special break + 1 week mid-sem break.

all in all, i got to visit the Logos Hope as i had wished for.
trying to look on the bright side.
oh well

quickly go back.

i'm tired of trying to speak in mandarin all day.
when every word of it never get its message across to be fully understood.

i'm tired of trying to speak it,
that every word and pronunciation comes out as mumbles.

and i'm tired of speaking in bahasa as i still can't talk in a straight sentence without a pause at almost every word.

and i seriously need to remember more spanish sentences other than ¿Como estas? and ¡Muy bien!

i wanna go back home quickly so i can just speak a few full english sentences.
i need a break from the 24 hours self language learning.

try speaking some language that you're not so fluent at and you'll feel how frustrated and annoyed when you can't send your message across and you have to even repeat a few times for that.

random wants.

christmas spirits are starting up in me now. and it's only october.

slient night~ holy night~
jingle bell jingle bell jingle all the wayyyy



and so i'm listening to 'wish you a very advance christmas' by IU

very advance indeed. =)
iwannagetsomegrapestoeat hmm

smoch™

i'm so tired walking to and fro today i wanted to type out i'm all 'smoldered' out. (a.k.a tired out)

i ended up writing ' i'm smoched '.

an hour later, i googled for 'smoched' and all i get is 'smooched'


so i guess 'smoch' is belongs to sarah tan mei yin now. ehehe

i declare smoch ™ created by sarah tan. nyah hah

i just got up like awhile ago...

...and there's so much misunderstanding going on once i opened my eyes.

can this people pass that message properly?
geez



breathe in breathe out.


never in my life that i so wish people to drop dead at such early in the morning.

LOA much? nope.

it's a stuffy night

yeah, it's a stuffy night.

iwannasaysomuchthingsbutidon'tknowhowtoputitinwords.
frustrations on irresponsible people is so not worth it. period.

its gonna be a feast

starting the after mid-term break there's gonna be a 'feast'.

i'm not sure if 8 people could fit into a single 4 person room for dinner but i think we'll manage lol

it was suppose to be 4 person, then it became 6 and now 8? @@
then we'll all learn how to cook for 8 persons portion of food. i have no idea, but when at home, my mom puts 3 1/2 cups of rice for 5 persons. but here, we had like, 1 cup per person. omg
and imagine we counting 8 cups of rice every dinner. did we became hungrier ever since we came back here? lol
i might've lost count of the amount of cups whenever its my turn to cook rice. imagine 8 cups. ahaha

'nyway i'm sure it's gonna be fun. =)

but canned foods are so limited. if only they had ready made pasta and spaghetti in cans as well as ready cooked vegetables in cans.

never learn

i will never learn how to suppress facial expressions
whether it's good or bad
if you get offended cause i showed a 'f-up' face to you
bear it.
cause you just did something that really wants me to punch you in the face.
tyvm

rude much?

mashed potatoes

i.made.mashed.potatoes!

for a saturday brunch.


roommates decided on egg sandwich and mushroom soup for a saturday brunch last night. we had potatoes for mash potatoes because i mentioned about it last week and we kind had a mis-communication. they thought i know how to make one and i thought one of them knows to to make one. in the end, no one knows how to make it. lol

and so i tried it out by referring it thru the internet.

mashed potatoes comes out nicely, but i guess there's a 'lil too much salt and i didn't mixed it properly since some parts are salty, peppery, and mayo-ie.

overall, it's a yum. hehe


but it's not as nice as the one i ate over at mary-ruth's.

it looks abit like this, yellowy and mushy

makesyouwannacareforyourkidney.

went to the Hospital Tengku Afuan Afzan (i have no idea how the last two words suppose to spelled out) or known as HTAA for a quick trip on about dialysis.

i remember the last time i stepped onto a dialysis center was for an Interact project on visiting Good Samaritan home and the nearby Rotary club's dialysis center for painting and cleaning.

it was suppose for a biomaterial subjects regarding the materials used in those dialysis machine and tubes that's compatible for blood without giving any complications. boring much? lol

but we ended up learning more to medical and patient's conditions.

seeing those patients coming in for their regular 3 times treatment in a week and having their neck, arms or thighs got injected with tubes really makes you wanna think more about your kidney.

worse, i saw 2 women who came for their treatment on the afternoon shift had 2 tubes labeled with red and blue attached to their neck protruding out only to have it covered with rolls of gauze in order to hide and keep it clean. imagine going everywhere, doing everything with that tubes protruding out. scary. not to mention disturbing too.

and most had those big 'growth' thing on their arms because they tend to want to have the needles poked in on the same spot at every treatment as the pain will decrease in every insertion. that's why there's this big 'growth' on their arms.

one man had it on his biceps and i seriously thought he had such big muscle, and thinking why would someone with muscle and healthy would need a dialysis treatment. lol

i even witness a blood spurting moment when the nurse injected the needle into a woman's arm. the blood flow was to fast and it spurt out quite a few loads of drops of blood.

take care of your kidney.

night =)

i'm no veggie

since last week was the Nine Emperor Gods prayers.
that's according to my roommate.
i doesn't know how to pray, when to pray, what day is what festival and whatsoever.

since she's praying, so every year she'll go vege for 9 days this time.
and since we're coking rice to eat together we can't really eat/have/cook meat cause then she'll have to cook in another different pot which will be very mafan.

in the end, all of us go vege. for dinner.
i've been having fully vege dinner since last friday till today.
lunch too i guess cause i rarely take lunch unless you count having biscuits and junks since i don't have much time for lunch.
i don't take breakfast as i usually got up like 30mins before class starts. wait. but it'll be 15mins before its time to walk out to class. 15mins before class that's it. heh


i misses chicken. and pork. =D
p/s: i had crab balls today for lunch nyeh heh


iwannagobackhomenotformeatbutforcomfort.

iamstupidsowhat

a friend gave a cold shoulder today in the lab.
the replies i get when i asked questions yesterday in FB too, was cold.

is it that she's having problems so she can't response well?
or is it that she's just all of the sudden emo-ing that she gave short replies?
or is it that i tell my last semester's results yesterday and it's not even one of highest?
or then after that i seem not smart enough to be your friend anymore?

maybe arrogance is not the answer so i am opting for the first.

time shall tell me the answer.

if the last maybe is the reason, i might not be the only stupid one cause who in the world is stupid enough to dip the whole pipette head into the solution while pipetting and to hold it with the solution still in the pipet tip at 90 degrees enough for it to flow into the instrument? a stupid person who doesn't know how to take care and use the instrument. thus failing practical.


hell yeah i'm jealous of top scorers

p/s: gave a told-off to someone today for throwing the attendance papers to me instead of passing it. (we're just side by side). such satisfaction. she's so rude all the time she deserves a lesson.