don't want!

stpm results are coming out next tuesday. i really don't feel any fear yet when i got to know about it yesterday. but today..fuh. full blast.
i was suppose to inform the principle about it cause on that day i decided to take half-day off so i could go and take the result. i thought it's just a 'say, got permission and go' that kind of thing. but i was wrong. she doesn't let me go. so in the end i'm not allowed to go out from 8am onwards until 1pm or maybe 1.30pm. it's quite torturing thinking that i'll be the only person that will take my result on that time ALONE. what happens if i have to take it from the office? by that time, the office will be closed and i have to wait until 2pm to get it. and worse, i only have 1 hour just to go to school to collect it and then come back to work. 1 hour is just not enough. there's no time to go crying around also. i was so stressed up thinking and discussing it with my dad until i beh tahan. i guess i really feared that i would fail. or maybe i already knew that i would. imagine; stress+tension= feel like dying. too brutal? then long piak-king.
i think i complain too much. should learn to accept things the way they are. maybe all these have it's own reasons. hope so. i heard that the results might got hold until 2pm. i wonder if it's a good thing? maybe yes, maybe not.
and currently i'm starting to search for the possible courses that i could take. and i'm wondering if 'sains marin' is actually 'perikanan'? there's so many courses with super great names but i dunno what they are actually. looks like i need to do more searching. haih...last minute work.