wrong

i had issues going with my practical.
thanks to the ones who helped me out throughout my decision making. at least i'm not so worried anymore.

it happens because i have this bad habit of not being able to decide what's best for me.


btw,
i've been walking around with short shorts (hey, not short la, it's just only until up to half of my thigh) just for one day. i have my menses (yes go eww eww like i care) and i don't feel like wearing pants that's tight. my track pants was quite tight, and i'm very lazy to change into it when i have to go down to the block just for some brief thing.

a friend called because she wanted her bus ticket that i bought for her. it was just a "hi, i give you, you pay me, bye, see you on sunday" thing that's only gonna take 5-10mins. and so i ran down to the parking lot to meet her and i get this honk from these people 5 mins later because my legs are offensive. it's not my first time wear shorts outside of the hostel compound and what's with today? plus those girls nearby been bitching me like i didn't hear it. what's up man?

no i'm not racist, and yes i know why they reacted like that and i respected that because once they saw aurat, they will be berdosa. okay la, fine, but hey, my friends are saying it's okay for me to wear shorts (outside of the uni compound. and in the uni compund, but that's breaking the rules) because i'm not a muslim. i mean, it is okay, like i don't know. but i did wore it to the night market which is outside the uni compund, and i get all these stares. even an imam was muttering something behind me.

what's the difference between my shorts (that's very baggy, but short) and a woman who wore clothes that are so tight, every single curves are noticable?

sighs. i will wear long pants from now on.

so sorry. i don't like wearing long pants it's because i can't the stand hot weather, especially when that pants is tight. and no, i got no other pants thanks. i even rolled up my slacks in class because everyone was saying that the class is so cold, they switched off the air conditioning (no it's not cold, it's just cooling. for 4 years, this still goes on and i can never understand).