hard work

i'm that kind of person no matter how long i spend my time in the lab, redo back each steps to get the right results, i will still won't be able to achieve what i wanted to get.

my groupmates bacterial cultures are so active that they react to every single reaction, while mine was, slow, small growth, and is sometimes unstable, i admit i felt all the jealousy that i had in me. i don't know where i did wrong in the keeping stock step.

the aim was to isolate out lactobacillus and as i progressed along in each step, i was getting more and more afraid that there won't be a lacto that is a probiotic.

and at these times, i'm quite snappy, well in the mind not verbally. once i heard a person who doesn't go lab for a whole day says that they're so tired out, i'll snap back (in my mind). they're a weak person, i'll think. they're too pampered to stand long hours in  the lab, i'll think.

but then, progress doesn't count how long you'll be in the lab. it's how effective you are. oh wells i guess i'm not. i kinda prefer to stay in the lab as i can see what i've left off and forgot to do.

i'm tired of doing all the washing for people who uses tips and never wash them. they think they're washing it when all they did was to soak it in dettol and leave on the bench for days. and when there's short of tips, they'll use the ones that you've clean, autoclaved and ready to use just for that day. there's no tips, i have to postpone my work, and i ended up washing those tips as i don't wanna say anything, and washing it i too could use it as well. to wait for them to wash, that day will never come. yeah i'm complaining. i just can't stand unorganized bench areas and unwashed stuffs.
i'm sick of opening drawers that is just cluttered with used aluminum foils, unkept chemical containers, used tissues all over the the bench, stained bench, unkept growth jar back to the incubator waiting for the bacteria to die outside on the bench, well..everything. i could complain all day with all the contaminants all over the bench. and yet these people's bacteria grow ever so happily unlike mine. maybe i need to be more dirty.

how do you feel when you open the box that you share, all cluttered, when you've arranged it the day before? don't 'cha feel like flipping the box upside down?
one term that i've learnt : "sabo je lah"
either way, arrange it back when it becomes intolerable(then repeat this step a few days after), or leave it as it is.

well actually this whole post was just because i wanna complain out on the last paragraph. in everyone's group, there will be one who will piss you off. and all you have to do is to clean things up after them just so you know things will be organized and that you and them will have sufficient stuffs to use on the next day without all the drama and conflicts and complaints face to face. slave la cause these people will never learn.