so far, only Mrs Koh and my supervisor, Miss Lee are the only ones that is so petty, perfectionist and strict when it comes to laboratory work.
yes, forgive me, again, because here i go, i wanna complain, wanna release wanna blabber about lab work. thankyouverymuch.
fine. i'm petty.
i see wrong in every other people's moves.
i like to 'tegur' other people saying this is wrong that is wrong.
i demand alot during lab work.
i'm perfectionist.
no dirt, scribble, or a drop of water must be on my apparatus even though it's just a plastic.
i take no chances on contamination.
i make sure everything clean even if it means of throwing away an unused pipette tip that is still clean, BUT had been exposed outside too long.
very petty, very fussy, very demanding.
i don't know if it's a wrong way to excel in lab work especially to sensitive work such as DNA but to me, my eyes, and my mind, all i know is that this is the correct way.
tell me if i'm wrong. then i shall see.
a person says i'm demanding. i uses just washed, clean, plastic surface to put my DNA mixture on top before loading it into the gel instead of a parafilm, that is sitting outside on the table, with dusts and what not that sticks to it. i don't say it's wrong. it's fine, the lecturer's been using it too. it's just that in my opinion, clean surface is better to reduce contaminants.
this is parafilm, to seal things
this is the agarose casting gel ( i think it's called that) to make gel.
the plastic that i use
i mean, who likes being told at, saying what you did is wrong and this is right, breathing down your necks when you take so much stuffs and being selfish and all? i'm selfish too in lab work. who don't.
or i just can't work in group environment. i don't know. we've been doing PCR for about 3 times already. some got the results that we wanted but not all of our samples succeeded. we failed most of the time. i just wish when we're doing it tomorrow, it'll be better because we did it under our SV supervision. the other failed attempts was during her absence.
like i say, if truth to be told, if truth to be spilled, i dare say, from what i think and what i feel is right according to what i see and think, that some of them is just so slack in doing lab work.
i know it's their own project, but since we're sharing those chemicals, their carelessness will contaminate it and those who are using it will be affected as well.
i did it individually (without them around) the day before, and my SV was at the same room as she was having class. (yes, i was doing my work when lessons is on). she saw and observed and explained to me things like to always have the chemicals on ice where every i go. when i said this to some of my groupmates, their faces turned black (that's from my POV). must be thinking why so busybody huh?
so fine i shut up (but i can't really control my mouth from opening again) and let them get their own consequences or in other words, learn by themselves. i doubt they will.
they slack, not being careful, can't stand tiredness, too weak, not so dedicated, not enthusiastic.
when the SV came today, and supervise after all those failures, truth to be told, i feel gleeful. yes, glee. i'm not lying or being nice now. i wanna smirk, and laugh at their faces (there's one that i soo wanna do) and say TOLD YA SO. i tried helping by correcting. i'm not good at explaining or talking. you don't wanna hear, accept, done. you lose.
the SV 'tegur-ed' every single things that she told me the day before. all those petty things that i did, they don't, and think i'm demanding.
and truth be said, in my facebook status, i said "if only Mrs Koh is here to see all these. no one will survive with her perfectionist attitude." it is directed to those people. i'm positively sure one person will die by the first hour of lab with Mrs Koh. her measurements taking even just using a measuring cylinder is all wrong. if they don't get it. i'm pretty sure they will from the comments below. if not, that few person is so damn thick headed.
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that's one thing.
i know part of myself. i know i can be selfish, i don't like sharing things, i put words in people's mouths, and one big thing, i love to point fingers at other people.
especially lab work.
if we share, it might be another person's fault because it might affect mine.
if we do things for each other (helping out in lab work) it might because of them too it didn't work out. (i don't say helping is bad, and not being thankful for people who willingly helping. but for those who don't even take precaution steps and don't know what they're doing and wanna help, it might be their fault).
i uses lecturer's name to back up what i said during the times i tegured what's right and what's wrong. i didn't lie. it's correct, it's just that the was i said it was like "you can't do this, or it's not like that because this so and so tell me yesterday/before".
i lurve (noted l.u.r.v.e.) to pin point fingers. yes. i had no back up explanation, because i myself agrees. i didn't see this as part of the wrong me, until one particular groupmate who got pissed off, say it out loudy right to the face saying it as though a joke, but the true intention is not just a joke. i'm lying if i say that i just laugh it off. i put on a straight face throughout the ordeal, laugh, and continue to talk and be friendly, being not offended. but deep down, i admit, i'm about to cry (well, not always you have someone telling you something straight at your face no?), and it affected me till now. and i know it's one thing that i won't forget for a long time.
sorrylarh you people got landed on someone so petty, perfectionist like me (sarcasm).
like any human thinks they're right, and everyone's wrong, i hereby saying that i did what's best for me, and i will continue being 'demanding'. while you people, you careless, ignorance people, shall go with your ways. like the hell i cared. period.
i don't say i have the most better FYP project than them, but in serious lab work situation, i excel more.
p/s: i soooooo wanna have that few person read this, feel the pinch, and get lost.
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