confused

i'm so confused and at lost.

going to start my work without the appointment letter due to some complications.
but without letter? it's like going to a place all naked.
i'm not even sure if it is the right thing to do.
i bet there's no other who's doing it like me.
as if the company belonged to my grandpa.

i've been thrown into this dark hole of bad luck.
get away from me *wooooooo*

p/s: i guess i need my thick skin mask back to get through all these things.

i can't go on living like this, being so thick faced and selfish.