still confused.

It's been a month since i started. if i were to add up with my internship duration till now, it'll be the 6th month.

honestly, you'll be thinking that i should at least know who is who, whys, whats and hows by now.
but, no. i don't know who is who, i don't know why it's happening, i don't know how it's happening and i have no idea what's happening.
i don't know why i'm still confused. i don't know where to start on a task. where to refer to, what to refer, what to know, what to take note on, who to ask, why why why.

i'm suppose to be the one asking why and hows. but instead, i've gotten alot of whys and whys every single day. i don't know whys seriously, why bother asking me. i'm still learning.

and people still asking me why am i still doing a job for an intern student. am i getting bullied? i sometimes thinks so and sometimes don't. it feels like it is part of my job. i'm suppose to do everything from scratch, even the minor ones and the problem is that intern students are the ones that's doing the minor ones. i don't mind. it's just that, why people won't stop asking.
if they don't stop, i'll be more prone to thinking that i am, really gotten bullied.

i can't explain things. i'll do a task without asking much, without knowing much. then i will present the results without giving all the whys.

i feel so lack of knowledge.

now one thing, where am i to get the knowledge?